You might have been in many relationships in your life. However, there’s none more dysfunctional, depressing, agonizing and sometimes, more harmonious, relationship then the one between your head and your heart!
We all have those quiet times when we sit alone with broken pieces of memories, and despair has crystal cleaned our soul of any hope. It is only then we realize that the true enemy is no longer outside our self.
It lies inside us. The demons live inside our heart and our mind.
From then on, begins a series of games we play with people who don’t even know they had a small part to play in the war. We try to outmaneuver the figment of our own imaginations until we give up to settle for a loss, and realize that for a person who’s destroyed from the inside, won’t even try to imagine having a glimpse of triumph. That person becomes obsessed with a waging war between the heart and the mind.
We know the truth; we know it exists. We know it will come and hit us hard. We know the truth about the lies that exist. But we keep on drowning ourselves to such a state of powerlessness that we find it hard to even breathe a sigh of fresh air – which at times is the only thing we need to recover again.
We victimize our hearts so much by listening to our brains that we end up losing control on ourselves and our actions.
The mind continues to question every move, and the heart just continues to get hurt with every move. The resulting interaction between the two is often hostile.
The mind obsesses doing everything, filling our heart with regrets and forcing us to sink in the pool of our own regrets. It forces us to think and think till we are exhausted. When the dust settles, the mind blames the heart for being such a looser and not being able to handle the pressure, which breaks it into pieces.
The mind blames the heart, blames you, me, and every other fictional character it can conjure up to blame for the growing pain we are suffering. It forces the heart to believe that an external force is responsible for all that is happening.
If you try to run away from the interaction, you’ll end up running in a circle. There might be a small ceasefire, but they’ll start bickering again. They’ll wait for you like a predator. They are way more patient than you. You can’t avoid the interaction. It’s like a slow poison travelling through your body, killing you by the second. There’s no way to escape from it.
The only aid you can get for yourself: “Dude..we really need to talk it out before you eat me up!”
For them, it really doesn’t matter who broke up with whom, the head and the heart can’t live without each other. That’s the sole reason behind the whole drama. Meanwhile, the head can think and do all the miraculous random stuff it does and the heart will never stop to amaze us by loving all the different kinds of things and people and weather and moments and chats. They will eventually grow back to being together, just like they were before the war broke out.
The head and the heart have the ability of being the most fierce combination that helps one survive the most difficult of times. They are like twitter and #hash tags. You can try, but you can’t separate them for long.
And they are the most amazing things to come out from mother nature..but not for now. Not for me.
At present, my head and my heart are on a break. And that too, a voluntary one! I know it was time to break up with myself. What about you? How do you manage to break away from yourself? Do you have a favorite destination that you go to in order to find solace? Is your heart at peace with your head after a Snickers chocolate and a can of your favorite drink?
Tell me about your way of getting away from all the hassles of life and giving your heart and your mind a break to sort things out. We all need to have a break.